To Pursue or Not #2

[Arcola]

I don't know what to think of my LRT. I'm detached I feel with a lot of anger and sadness harboring inside me. Since last weekend I feel I've hit lows each day. Throughout the day contact with W is minimal, maybe 1 email exchange about kids or something important. Minimal conversation when we are in presence of each other.

It seems things went from us being friendly to less friendly. I can't say either is optimal given she's still in the fog in my opinion. Nonetheless, I'm sticking to the LRT.

Last night I counted three more months until her lease is up again. I'm thinking of throwing in the towel if things don't appear on the up then. Right now its a feeling, but who knows if I'll actually do so come that time.

Aside from my responsibilities kids, work, home, school, I need to pick up in the GAL department to avoid these recent lows I'm experiencing.

Today, I scheduled an appointment with DB counselor for Friday.