Betsey - while I would normally say Steve McQueen trumps all (I'm embarrassed to say how many times I've seen The Great Escape), when it comes to The Magnificent Seven, I have a soft spot for James Coburn's character. That initial knife throwing scene is too awesome.
I appreciate the wisdom of your words about vulnerability. It's something I completely understand logically - but boy is it hard to put into practice. I'll check out the TED talks.
Without trying to sound like a martyr, it feels right to focus my energy on my little party of three for the time being, while also enriching all my non-romantic relationships, which will eventually include STBX. I don't feel like I'm actively hiding or shutting myself off from anything - more like healing and rebuilding for a bit.
Who knows what the future will bring? Just because one fisherman threw me back, it doesn't mean I'm not still a good catch . I'll do my best to keep an open mind and heart and not turn too curmudgeonly, but I'm also aware that dating in my 40s, with kids, a crazy schedule, a mortgage and a pretty full life would be pretty challenging.
Anyway - I've been mulling around what is probably a pretty hare brained scheme to start a side business to supplement my income - one more piece of my fresh start.