Has been an emotional 4 hours... W sent me a text around 4:30 asking me to come downstairs to talk when I woke up. I had just woken up so I went downstairs... To make a long story short, she can't wait a few more months for me to move out (which I requested earlier this week so I could have time to earn a few paychecks in order to be able to furnish a house.)
We've talked a lot about next steps... lots of tears on both sides... so many things to figure out financially... Needing a huge miracle right now in terms of a new place to live... Was thinking originally of just renting in the neighborhood, but home rentals right now are very limited and not appropriate/comfortable for the kids. Found an ADORABLE little house for sale -- but might still be slightly out of my range unless I could come up with a huge down payment...
I know things will work out somehow someway... But definitely time to move forward in order to give W the space she needs and the reality that she thinks she wants right now.
Just need lots of prayers right now to figure things out going forward. I'm feeling emotional right now, but doing really pretty good considering everything. Not feeling scared, shattered, or broken -- just sad... But I know I'm going to be okay. I'm going to be great... Not afraid to be in my own place, just want to make sure it's a place that is safe, appropriate, and comfortable for the kids - and a miracle that would allow me to buy instead of rent would be awesome for many reasons. Still trusting that God is working all of this into something really beautiful for our family despite what the circumstances appear to be right at the moment.
Still working on my masterpiece and still believing I'm invincible regardless of the emotions I am feeling this morning.
Oh -- in other (very good) news... My start date for my new job is next Monday. Yay!
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
