I'm so sorry you had to hear what you did....you've been dealing with this for so long.
You and I have much in common.. Being sad for the guy who no longer exists?? Oh, yes.... I know that pain well.
Here's the thing.... Ruling out any possibility of a R in the future is up to you. But consider this: 3 years ago, did you ever imagine you would be here?? What crazy thing could happen 3 years from now that you may not imagine today??
No one knows what the future holds. You just never know.
Live your life. Find your inner "amazing".... Because it's in there.
The chances of him coming back (if that's what you want) are far greater once you finally cut the rope, and live your fabulous life. After he's done and baked.... You having a life will be extremely attractive to him. Or...... Someone even better for you than he will ever be.
You're an amazing gal, Bright!! You deserve better.
