Getting back to me

[mustardseed]

Thanks Bob. I am feeling good about work right now. The beginning of the week usually goes well, but Thursday's are always really rough. There is no diwn time and I always feel under planned. I think it is because the students' schedules are more staggard. There are fewer pullout and a bunch of my students don't go to some specials due to their disabiliti s so I feel like I need to plan triple. Also my prep time has a lot more kids in the room then any other day and so planning for my TAs during that time I s stressful. Usually they end up doing somethibg I planned for another time or an activity I didn't know about which leaves me floundering later on in the day. Maybe that is the next hurtle to overcome.

I'm also going to try to get most of my planning done after school on Thursday and Friday so I'm not so stressed out over the weekend now that the ieps and meetings are done.

The principal hasn't said anything so I don't know if my changes are changing her opinion or not, but my main focus right now is just getting through each week.

As far as h. He still is house sitting and pops in every now and then before heading back to his buddies house. Ow contacted me yesterday because she wanted to give d a ride home. I told d she needed to wait at the library because I had a dr appointment. H told ow the same thing. I'm sure d was annoyed by having to stay but i still got annoyed that I had to explain my reasonings for wanting d to stay at school to ow. To prove that I'm not putting the kids in the middle, or neglecting my children, but just that if she came home too early she would have been home alone for longer than I felt comfortable.

I can tell the situation stressed h out as well. If d just had her phone charged ow would not have needed to contact me. Life has gotten very complicated for him. I have a bit of spiteful joy in seeing it. I just need to be careful to not think too much about it. My night out out me in a good place and I don't want to lose this pma. Right now I am in the place where she can have him. It won't last anyway. I realized last weekend that I am fun, attractive, and confident with who I am when I am around people who aren't part of his life. I will be ok. He doesn't get to define me anymore.