Alpha Step At A Time #5

[alpha99]

Had a great day today with the kids. We visited relatives, went to the park, they played with their cousins etc. In the afternoon we went out with my parents and had ice cream, a nice walk through the shops, and a little go on the funfair.

Throughout the day I've thought of W and our sitch.

Now I feel sick to the pit of my stomach. The reason? Well, it seems my dating website shenanigans have backfired spectacularly...

My W has added pictures to her profile on the website...taken I guess from before her night out last weekend.

She looks stunning.

I guess this was done as a riposte to seeing my profile on there - a profile only set up through boredom really. How stupid I feel now.

How do I deal with this? I am taking the kids to her in the morning. Should I mention it at all or not? Should I explain my (lack of) intentions about the website? I was thinking of sending her a joke message via that website asking if I could get a date. My gut tells me that would be a bad idea.

I feel what she may have signed up to on a whim (like me) might now become something she pursues with a great zeal as a means to show me how she's moving on. She has certainly only added the profile pic after seeing my profile on there yesterday. Does this mean her and OM are over? Does that even matter at this point?

I just feel sick right now. Bad enough an affair with someone she bonds with over time, but now advertising herself on the internet...whoa. Yeah, I know, I've done the same (since deleted the account).

She could have a date in about 5 seconds if she wanted one.

What have I done?