Yes thank you, I have pulled way back. took me over 2 months to get back to grips and realize my breaking down was not helping. we have separated in the past and I have never done that. The timing of so many things where to heavy to carry and I broke. Funny that this was what she wanted to see in me for so many years but when I comes to late it just seems to anger them. well she knows I love her,lol. I have been fairly strong and held together for some time now. its how she loves to try to provoke me so often and at the slightest bit of standing up for myself she begins to punish and hate. she cried and told me of the many hurts she has from me and I had the opportunity to acknowledge her pain and my regret in causing it. Time will tell weather she wants me back in her heart I guess. if that day comes I must be ready and fixed to never allow that pain to her again. anyway bye for now.
