One other thing I have to ask is... when you were carrying on your A's, how many of them were there? How long of a period was this?
When you carried them out, did you act entitled or did you feel sorry after?
And of course, the most honest question you have to ask yourself... Why would your W want to stay with you if you betrayed her trust so many times in the past? I mean you haven't really "changed". It sounds like you're just scared because now she's getting some self respect for her after years of abuse by you.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
