Part 18 - Creeping onward

[edz]

Hi Dawn

thanks feeling very positive about myself (as opposed to sitch which I try to see as separate now) yes, got a lot in there, why I like the (old) mark 4 golf over the newer ones, put the rear seat down and yo can get big packages in there, I did measure what would fit BEFORE I went into Ikea which, it appeared, was not the case in a lot of peoples cases. Two or three people looking baffled including, I kid you not, a couple with a 180cm flat pack looking in bafflement at a fiat punto as if it would magically stretch or perhaps be bigger inside than out (Firat Tardis Punto maybe).

Having said that I did drive home as if I was in a clown car with the seat forward which, considering Ikea is ~30 miles from me, wasnt the most fun experience - my car is, as the americans say, a stick shift so this was an additional challenge. "Oh No, I need second gear!".

But yes managed it

W just dropped s around so will be getting the swimming gear sorted momentarily (just been finishing up some emails while he has a blast on the ps3) and once rush hour traffic subsides will be off to the pool. S found the new midi keyboard in the office and was having a pick at it, seems to like music so I've emailed w saying does she want my yamaha mini keyboard (had it since my teens but the keyboard is midi sized and I'm not so cant "finger" properly - steady you lot!) for his bedroom at the flat as its in my (new!) wardrobe at the moment not being much use to anyone.

We had a small chat but she seems a bit preoccupied and was fretting the flat is a mess (s is 10 so leaves his room like you'd expect a 10 year old boy does - lego explosion but I believe she does indulge his messiness a little as he's not like that here - although his room is much smaller) also MIL/FIL have dumped a lot of their stuff thats not in storage in w's front room and a load of non perishable foods on her kitchen floor in boxes. W makes that rod for her own back of course and I am staying a hundred miles from it.

Other than that she was showing me some pics she'd taken (and s had taken) on her phone and chatting about the weekend and how s had been. She said every time she sees the place Ive been spending more money (sarcasm) but liked the hall, she didnt want to come up to the office when I retrieved her portable hard drive (she'd asked for some bits off our media server) and I wasnt about to push, I don't need validation like that I know its nice and I like it in my home

Felt happy and confident and calm around her today, feel I looked good in my new top, w did not of course comment on anything but thats not the point - I like to think she's noticed and that gives me a boost as well.

Anyway what was odd is although she wanted to get going (and I do not try to get her to stay just give her the option of more coffee etc and carefully watch body language as this was a failing of mine previously) so I said fine no problems let me know when she's popping by to pick s up tomorrow and I'll have him ready then she kept slowing down, first at the kitchen door then going into the lounge to speak to s then again in the hall then we chatted at the door for a good 10 minutes before she went. Didnt hang at the door and wave or go in the kitchen etc just let her go. Probably interesting but her old habit of backing out of the doorway as soon as possible seems to have gone with me.

Anyhoo need to extract a 10 year old from a ps3 and get the swimming gear and make a move, pizza when we get back tonight

Catch you all later

Edz