I am with you. I don't think I will ever trust or love anyone again. My walls are soooo high. I too don't think I cold ever bring anyone new into my kids lives. I just don't feel comfortable with it. Call me paranoid or bitter, but that's my hoest emotion.
Right now, anyone I see repulses me in the dating sense. I am not the sort to drift efortlessly fromR to R, I never have been. I have alwyas been cautious who I let into my life for the very reason of not getting burned and caught up in their B.S.
Ahhh..... guess we carry on....on our own time tables whatever they may be. My poor Mother can't understand why I just "can't get over it already". i have given up trying to explain my feelings to her. I don't have to justify my emotions to her, they just are and I have to work through them at my own pace.
