I have to say this gift couldn't come at a better time. I probably needed it long ago but just financially couldn't do it.
I feel like I'm back on the downward spiral of frustration and resentment. I know I am still focusing too much on his actions, little things especially with his computer or phone really irritate me. I'm flipping him the bird and saying "F you" behind walls. Not where I want to be. I will breathe deep before I go home today, I am running so that should help.
I did do a little GAL this weekend. There was a festival and I went. D16 wasn't home and D13 didn't want to go so I went by myself. Mixed feelings about that. On one hand I am proud of myself for going, in the past I would not have gone to something like this alone. On the other hand it was kind of depressing. There are some things that are more enjoyable with somebody else.
Last night I went shopping to find some work clothes, I've been working quite a bit lately and have a very small wardrobe. I was trying to find something different, a dress or skirt. I didn't find much but I did buy new perfume!
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
