Dinner was nice. No relationship talk, mostly just small talk about work, the kids, the weather. I waited for her to bring up anything more serious and didn't press her for details when she did. She was a lot like her old self, very pleasant and fun to be around.
She likes her new therapist, and thinks he will be a good one to work with. I was encouraged that she is moving in the right direction to get herself better. No hints about ever wanting to reconcile, but I wasn't expecting any. She has stated a few times now about how much work she has to do to get herself better.
She did cry again when it was time for me to leave, which is always tough on me as well. I also got another kiss on the cheek from her, during a goodbye hug. When I went to kiss her forehead she started to turn her head up like she wanted a kiss on the lips. But I continued with a just a peck on the top of her head.
It was really tough not to tell her how much I miss her, love her, and want her back. But I’m holding steady, trying to follow Sandi's rules and advice for the LBH, and trusting the process.
I was going to send her an email thanking her for dinner and suggesting we try and have dinner together every week, but I realize that would be pursuing. Perhaps someone has an idea for how to suggest dinner when she contacts me later this week to schedule a meet up to exchange mail and other things she needs.
Me:43, WW:45 2 Kids: 21,22 Married: 23 Years Bomb: 01/2015 Separate Bedrooms: 02/2015 She left: 03/2015
