Hello all, I would like to say thank you for this forum and all those who have had to hurt for the knowledge they share here.
Anyway about my reasons for being here. I have hurt my wifes heart. I have hardened it for way to many times and to many years before realizing the great pains I have caused to the most precious thing I had. Blinded by pride. I was a very hurt and foolish man. It is such a shame that it had to come to this before I learned what and how I was not the person I could of been for so long. I am lucky and special that my wife stayed as long as she did. 14 years together. 8 years married. We have been separated for almost 3 months now. she did not want to D until my pushing, begging, tears, all other totally wrong stuff forced her to drop the bomb 3 weeks ago. as bad as it sounds that put my head back on my shoulders and helped me realize how I was continuing to push her away. I realized how I had hurt her very close to the beginning of the separation and wanted to tear that part of me away and replace with so much better. I have been very successful with that to the point where many ppl including my wife have noticed. I truly am fixing those things for me. I do wish I would of seen those things so long ago as to save my wifes heart from so much pain. we still have not gone more than a single day without communicating but a lot of that is due to the 3 wonderful kids we have. I have made many sacrifices and given up some very powerful hands for the benefit of them but realize it will probably cost me my wife. oh how such a wonderful women who loved me so much has had to turn so cold to save what was left of her heart. she is in a very dark deluded place right now and become very hard toward so many things in life. In the last month I have made great progress ass well but also taken many steps back due to legal issues of a separation agreement we are trying to work out. it strikes so much pain in me I sometimes forget the path I must hold if I am to have any chance to save what great future and dreams we have shared. anyway ppl I will update more info and appreciate any advice or guidance you good ppl may have. Thank you!
