Z- H can sleep around and do whatever he wants. He wont find what he is looking for. Its just a temporary fix. He will soon realize that nothing can satisfy him because what he is looking for is in you.
Please don't ever question what you did by kicking him out. You had every right and I'm glad you did it. You stood for you and what you are not willing to accept. I am so sorry about what you are feeling, I wish i could just give you a giant bear hug.
Keep your head up Z and drive on. Things will work out. You know it will.
ME: 28 W: 24 M: 2.5yrs T: 5yrs BD: 22 SEP 14 W Leaves: 5 OCT 14