All I Wanna Do Is..Get A Little Closer #12

[Georgiabelle]

Thanks Job. As always, your words are like a warm blanket and a cup of cocoa. I appreciate your thoughtfulness.
Hi DB posse! Everyone ready for an update???? I'll start with the basics. Trip was nice. Weather was great. Kids got to play with my niece and brother and it was fun to watch. My brother seems to be doing well (he was very funny) and is getting a new prosthetic. My daughter discovered $ 8 mock tails by the pool. 5 year old lifted my dress in line at Disney. People were traumatized by the sight of my booty:-). We get on shuttle bus later that day and S5 says, "Okay Mommy. It's time to show everyone your boobies. " What???? Perhaps that was a fortuitous statement because when I jumped in the pool later that night, the clasp broke on my top and it shot across the pool. Moms. Gone. Wild.

During the trip, xMIL had to have emergency surgery. Surgery was difficult and she has been in ICU for several days. Fortunately she is on the mend and my x BIL has kept me posted. X Mr GB? I'm sure he knows and I was saddened by what she asked me before surgery. She said that she wanted to text him that she loved him and would it be okay. I said, " He's your son and you should say what you want. Don't let his behavior change what you want to say to him. You have to do what you think is best...for you." I hope she feels better soon. I love her and am much closer to her than my own mom.

And now for the scandalous stuff....please file this under the "It can only happen to GB" file. So, I occasionally hung out with HG and although he said I confused him, I honestly had no idea what he wanted from me. Wonka- this is for you. I went over to his house (I had been before) and he showed me his HULK blanket he sleeps with and his Chuck Taylor's with all of the Marvel characters on them. Wtf???? I knew he had a tattoo of the Hulk but I don't know.....He also had a case of Mr. Bubble. Please know I'm all for engaging child like qualities-just felt it was strange. Reminded me of x Mr. GB. And here's the kicker ...,,,

Please know I have friends who are faithful, cheaters, swingers.,, I know all types. As I stated, I've only been with a few men in my life. HG said, "I saw you with your friend yesterday. I would really like to have sex with both of you at the same time, but no offense, I want to be naughty with her. " I said," I don't want to hurt your feelings (why am I always nice??) but J wouldn't go for that. You aren't her type." He then said well you don't want me and ended with me finally saying (very crudely I might add), " I have 3 close female friends. None of them are going to F you." I realize that was rude, but geez. Do I have pr!ck magnet tattooed on my forehead??

Nevertheless, this only reinforces my current belief that I can't imagine a future R. The thought of one makes me physically ill. Literally. The fact that I had sex with this person makes me question my sanity (high IQ and Wonderlic score be damned). I don't know. I read about everyone saying "they feel like they know what they want on their next R." I think that's awesome-I really do. Right now, the most I can muster is I have to be attacted to him and him to me and he must have a good sense of humor because if he doesn't, I'll be on Dateline. Oh and he needs to be employed. I'm aiming for the stars, eh? The attraction thing seems like a big enough hurdle. I don't know. I would like for someone to be attacted to me. Seems far fetched.

Had a good cry today. Love my people and my furry peeps. Grateful for good friends, laughs, good health and this board. That's what I've got. Xo