Question from a DR perspective. But first, Thanks, Gg for the reassurance. And Vanilla for your take on it all.
There's a big part of me that wants to stand and hope and be a good DRer - am I out of my mind??
1. Exhibit A - H's signs all long he was immature, manipulative, that I was dragging him. Now he'll protest and say he wanted this, but eh. He was never really fighting for this.
2. Exhibit B - what I call a lot of emotionally Abusive/twisting/denial. I know. I love him anyway. He said he took responsibility for handling things but still claimed I arouse this anger in him too much through my own style of confrontation. Is there hope for change even if he sees it someday? And is the excuse the same next time?
3. Exhibit C - complete lack of remorse and interest
4. Exhibit D - wanting to see and sleep with others.
How could I possibly stand for my marriage? And have any self respect? I dread those papers and finally saying its over and I don't want to sign - but I think we've had years of this and it's getting worse.
I just feel miserable not being able to let it go and feel like this is right.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
