When is kindness enough?

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I slept in my bed!
Yesterday night we arrived home after our Easter holidays.
We had awakened very early in the morning to catch a flight, so we were exhausted.
I wanted to get to bed before my W, but I could not manage to do it because I had to tuck my kids into bed.
When I got into our bedroom, she was already laying down with a book in hands.
I asked her if she was going to read and she said yes.
I then headed towards what used to be my side of the bed and said: “I am going to sleep in the bed. I am very tired and need a good night’s sleep.” I pulled the blanket and lay down.
My W said nothing.
I saw we had the pillows swapped, so I asked for mine. She gave it to me.
I closed my eyes and turned by back to her.
After one minute she left the bed.
I made a bet she was going to sleep in the couch but no, she just went to the bathroom.
And that was it.
It was a very weird feeling.
On one side, I felt physically excited to be in that place again. Being so close to my W aroused me because we don’t have sex in one year and half. On the other side, I could not properly rest because of the conscious effort of trying not to touch her.
This morning she said nothing and her mood is the same as it has been for the last month. She smiles at me, we cooperate around the house and talk normally.
Tonight I will be there again!