It's a tough day. Lots of feelings and emotions. Another question though. It's been over two years of nothing from W, no love, no love intimacy. I am so over all of it, I just want to be happy, and have a relationship. But I'm so afraid of trying something new, and hurting her still. I don't want to totally ruin any chance at a R, if one ever presented itself. But I know that right now that's silly thinking. In the back of my mind, the fear of that is gripped tight though. Is the only way to do that, to just get out and do it? Do I try to get over that fear first? Really confused right now!
