What are you hoping for when you interrogate your mind and this board about what your WW is thinking? Surely you know that the answer is not here. Then what?
One of the things I learnt reading the success stories is that we never really know what goes on with them. The stories from backstage that the LBS hear upon R are often way off what they had interpreted. Give up.
You seem to expect your WW to validate your feelings. You want her to know and acknowledge that you're hurt, remorseful, etc. Not gonna happen. It's time to rely on your own opinion of yourself.
It truly is a waste of time to try and figure out their thought process behind why they do what they do. Imagine what you could do with all of that time?!
And I did try to speculate why my H did crazy things when he was gone. He viewed things completely different from me and why he did things were the polar opposite of what I had convinced myself he was doing.
There are so many things I would do differently but the top thing would be to have stopped spending so much time wondering who what why where
