I'm sure that I'm in the minority here, but I read every message between wife and OM. Yes, it was extremely painful, but it allowed me to see the depth of her deceit and how far gone she is. I tend to idealize our marriage and latch onto all the good times, while forgetting about all the heinous things that she has done in this affair. I need to see how badly she was talking about me, and her disrespect and disregard, to refocus my thoughts.
Don't get me wrong, I don't do this all the time. However, it has helped when I start to have a pity party.
Me M51 WW F46 T 17 yrs M 16 yrs 9 children D29 D27 D26 S24 S24 S19 S19 niece18 S17 8 grandchildren ILYBINILWY: 12/15/14 I discover PA 12/31/14 She files D: 1/9/15 She moves out 3/2/15 D papers served 3/18/15