Hi Tad, Congratulations on the raise! This tells me that you are doing a good job and doing what is expected of you. Keep up the good work!
As for FB, why not stay off of that site for a while unless you are using it to keep in touch w/friends and family. As for your xw and the way she looks, there could be any number of reasons she's put on weight, eating, alcohol, medications and changes beginning to take place w/her, i.e., menopause. Depression can put a whammy on the body as well, some gain, some lose weight. But whatever the reason, it's on her.
So you slipped had had a couple of smokes. It's not a "fail". Quitting smoking takes a lot of effort and will power and if you had some rough times, well, that will draw you back to the smokes. You know what you need to do, so get back on track again and keep moving forward.
I'm glad your little rattie is still hanging in there. She's getting old and wants to be close to you for warmth and comfort. Enjoy her company and always know that you did the best by them. They knew they had a good home life.
Keep trying to get in to see a therapist. A therapist will help you figure things out. I know it's been tough going trying to get in to see one...but don't give up. You are not a quitter!
Tad, please take care of yourself. You only have this one life...so live it to the fullest each and every day.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
