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[tadpole1025]

Thanks everyone.

Been a couple of weeks.

Been trying to get in to see a therapist, but keep getting the run around with my employer/website/computer. Ug. Going to keep trying. I should know something next week. Sometimes I really think that everything/everyone is just out to make my life difficult.

I've been trying to "fake it" at work and on FB, but that is all it is: fake.

I slipped and had a couple of smokes last week. Again: fail.

Kimmerz: The meds? I just don't like being on them. I was on them before, but took myself off of them. They helped a lot, but my brother was also on meds before hanging himself. I guess...I'm just trying to be careful/cautious....

Saw a picture of XW last week. Wow. She's put on some weight!!! It's kind of funny in a way because she got into all the healthy foods and the P90X thing and this is the heaviest she's ever been. I've never seen her this heavy. And with the working out and healthy eating....the weight gain doesn't make sense. Could be the alcohol.

I've actually lost a lot of weight just in the last month. I don't know how much because I don't have a scale, but I've gained two holes in my belt loop.

My little baby rattie.......she just keeps hanging in there. I thought once her sister died back in December, she would be right behind her. I love her so much. I do hate the fact that she has slowed down so much. It used to be when I would let her out for play time, she would run all around the room, jump on furniture and have a blast. Now, she won't leave my chest. She just wants to cuddle and sleep on my chest. It's sad, but I do like cuddling with her.

Had my performance review at work last week. It went very well. I'm getting a raise later this month.

I know what I want my life to look like and what I want. I just don't know how to get there.

Guess that's all for now.

Tad