Hey Vge – glad you are getting a break from your gruelling chemo regime. So sorry you are losing your hair, I know it affects how you feel about yourself – I have alopecia and wear a scarf; I tried the wig route but I did not feel confident in one, but I do have a hair piece that I wear for special occasions. Losing your hair does not define who you are, be proud of yourself, you are beautiful.
Is there counselling/help available to your children to help them understand what you are going through and what things are happening to you? It may help them be less scared of what is going on.
Job said it all; stop f/b stalking – yes that is what it is vge – I put my hand up and say, yep I wanted to know everything about her– but you know what, all it has done is show me what a damaged person she is and that made me upset to think he swapped me for that! The internet, in particular f/b is not your friend right now; now you know, step away and leave well alone. You are perfectly normal in wanting to know about her, but where does it stop – you’re obsessing about bumping in to her, you will drive yourself crazy if you start to play scenarios in your head …what if …what if …what if …. Vge , you have enough going on in your world, without adding your h’s world in to the mix. Stop and take a deep breath …for your sanity :o)
This journey you are on is a long and hard one, made even harder by the fact you don’t understand what the heck just happened to your h and m. It’s a horrible process that LBS have to go through and on top of that you are having a battle with your health – vge, you are doing incredibly well, I am in awe of your strength and resilience. I bow down to the beautiful goddess that is vge :o)
