You sound really good and stronger. You have been spending really good time with your kids and is blessed to enjoy this time with the innocence of their age.
Looks like you are take a day at a time and your GAL is fantastic.
But, one thing that strikes me is that you seem to start giving up on this difficult situation. I know how hard it can be if there is no communication at all. But why is your WAS so mad with you after all this time? Was she always like this? A person that holds grudge for a long time? Or was there reasons that she can forget and forgive?
And what about DB? What are the changes on you that she can notice? What are the 180s that may not pass without notice? Is there anything that reminds her of the man she fell in love once? Because she did once, so it is in her memory somewhere.
Is there any way you can shake your sitch?
I do not see any D papers being served, why is that? If she wants you out of her life for good, why she did not serve you yet? Can this be a little sign of her commitment to her new R? Or maybe she is testing the waters on the other side to see if this is what she really wants?
Do you have any clue of what is going on with her? Was she depressed? Is this other man very different then you?
Maybe I shouldn't be asking all this. Maybe it is a bit rude from me to make you recall all what hurts, but it seems all static, like the cheeseless tunnels.
Do you think you could share some info with us and then we all storm some ideas to start going where is the cheese?
Just some toughs to make you think a little bit. The first reason you came to this board was an attempt to save your M, your family. So, maybe time to time we all need to look at our sitch and analyse what is working and what is not.
It's not too late for your M. But sometimes, I feel that it may be too late because you already gave up on it. Is that the case?
I apologize if my questions are inconvenient, it's up to you to answer them or not. I just would like to understand where you at at this moment in time.
