I I have just read your entire situation. My heart truly goes out to you! From what I've read you are handling things as best you can and are probably stronger than you think.
I was blindsided by my wife walking out on me while I was out of town to visit my son and then she filed for divorce the very next day. So I understand feeling blindsided. I have recently moved my thread from the walk away spouse forum to this forum. I found out I was on the one for the spouses that walk out. Oops!
Just last night I went out and had dinner with a guy I met at a divorce support group I'm going to. I feel like you where I want to get on with my life but I still do have feelings for my wife. My friend thinks she took advantage of me (She has MS) and is very selfish for running out the way she did.
The reason I am mentioning all of this is just last night my friend got me to see that I truly may be better off without her. I still haven't totally given up hope and I've come off the ledge I hope you're not on the ledge if so please step back.
I'm not sure if I making any sense or helping but you might want to look at my situation just the last few days. I got some good advice from people on the board here and I spoke to my wife Thursday and made a big mistake asking her about coming home for a few days.
Please hang in there. You are in a very rough place to be right now. I went through a divorce back in 1999 and never thought I would remarry and I was just so devastated, but time did heal my wounds.
Please by all means take care of yourself first.
Regards,
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15
