Well, I haven't heard from H since we had the horrible D discussion on Thursday. This is the first time since all this started that he hasn't reached out at all.

Today has been really hard. H and I started doing triathlons about 6 months before we got married to get in shape for the wedding. We really liked it and it became something we did together. This morning was my first tri of the season and one that we normally do together. The whole time I was out there, I just kept thinking, oh I can't wait to tell H about this or this...because he is the only one who understands exactly what I am going through. But I can't and it [censored]. Just feeling crappy today.

Well, just got a text from H asking how it went. Do I respond?

Me:36 H: 29
T: 4 years
M: 2 years
No kids
In-house sep 10/4/14
H moved out 1/2/15
Talk of D 4/9/15

"She's standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more she can take" John Mayer