Getting Stronger

[u-turn]

Hey Heavy,
Thanks for reading along. We are still living together - she has said she will leave, but then pulls back, doesn't act. I really don't think she will leave because this is her idea of keeping the family together (in whatever condition happens to be). We really are stuck in a rut with this.

I know this seems like an envious position when both of us see each other every day, but detachment has been hard for me and the feeling of being used never goes away.

We are currently separated in the house and barely speak to each other. She sleeps on the couch in the basement. I have never left the MBR.

I am still going on the idea that a physical separation is what I/we need and I still feel she *should* be the one to leave. But I have envisioned me leaving, and I may be ok with it. Option 3 is we sell the house and both leave - but this would affect the kids the most.