I'm glad you posted an update about your health. I'm sure you are happy to have a week off the chemo. I'm sorry about your hair, but as they always say, it will grow back. Wear the wig when you go out if that makes you feel comfortable. You are a warrior fighting for her life and you know what? People don't notice as much when we walk around bald. People are showing others that they are fighting cancer and it's a good reminder that we all need to take care of ourselves and be there for those who are going through this terrible ordeal.
As for Facebook. You can't always believe what you see here. A lot of times its just bragging and wanting affirmation for what they are saying. If people are truly as happy as they say they are, they wouldn't need to announce it to the world. Try to refrain from visiting that page again. It's trash, as far as I'm concerned.
As for your h and this ow, it's something new. She has the money to spend on him and when the well is dry and the bills pour in, things will change. Right now, he's using her, just as much as she's using him. She's grieving and he's her white knight. He's playing the dutiful friend, trying to help her out and that relationship isn't built on love, it's built on propping each up right now. Eventually the house built on lies will shake and the sands of time will shift the foundation until it falls. I wouldn't worry about her because she's truly nothing to worry about in the grand scheme of things. YOU are important and YOUR children are important right now. Getting your strength and health back are important so that you can live your life to the fullest and watch your children grow up to be successful individuals.
You are a wonderful mother and your children love you dearly. They are worried about you and know you need as much love and support as possible. When you feel like it, do some things w/the children, even if it's just taking a walk or reading a story...but get them involved in some activities w/you.
Don't be too hard on yourself. We all have gone down the path of wanting to know what the other person has that we don't. What attracted our spouses to them? Who are they, etc.? Bottom line, they are just new and if it hadn't been that person, it would have been someone else who is needy and needs a white knight to rescue them. It's him that is broken and can't find the proper glue to put himself back together again. But, for now, he is riding on the great wave of rescue. It will eventually get old.
Please take care of yourself. YOU are a very valuable person not only to yourself and your children, but to everyone you come into contact with. Never doubt your worth. You are the prize!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
