Thanks RD, hope that maybe life will make you a fish in my pond and the catch will be a big prize. Who knows, my life has been always a big adventure.
You are right RD, my decision is to treat H as a neighbor, no more space for the big game. I am re reading the DB books. I am not very sure how much I want this M anymore. I have been changing, but I don't see any changes in my H.
I won't engage in M, R talks with H. I understand he does this so he feels better. It's not about me, it's only about him. Besides, I am kind of a crazy girl, like the adventure, bikes, crazy stuff. But I have a real sense of responsibility, and in regard to my family, it's the most important for me.
Have been talking to my Mom in Brasil and she has been reminding me that I never took any crap from anyone. She asked me other day, where is her daughter, the one that would stand and say: "So, what?"
I know I have been living the low side of my self confidence, but slowly I am coming back, I can feel I am becoming myself again. I was too hard on myself when this whole D started. Now, I started being more gentle and let myself comeback.
RD, thanks for all your kind words. And, I don't just lift your spirits with the talking of meeting one day. I also lift my own spirit with the tough of meeting someone that has been learning so much about R, M and love. I most specially admire you for being a great family man.
Maybe because you are like me. There is a wild side inside you and there is a big dad that care so much for family. The two should not go together, but I totally get it because I am and feel the same way.
I love the fact that you say you don't have much time for GAL because of cooking, laundry, cleaning... it takes a real man to admit that and respect that. If at least my H would be 10% of what you are.
But please, don't worry. I won't fail you, my mom, myself and mainly my kids. H will get the cold shoulder. No more Pink cleaning his crocodile tears.
