So I read everything a few times. Just to start off I finally found a job and start monday. I'm excited and nervous it's been 5 yrs since I worked. I think this will help me a lot by distracting myself with work and not thinking of him or the situation. I have been hanging out with friends more often then I did before. I truly am working on myself and finding my inner happiness. Yes I'm hurting that he's still not back and I've accepted that I need to work on myself. I have improved from where I was a month ago. I have set up new small goals to begin and would love to reach those goals. I have stopped snooping. And I never confronted him about the stuff I saw. I just kinda let it go. I do appreciate all the little positives I see. He hugged me the other day and said he missed me and that he'll come home soon. Whatever it meant I appriciated it. I thanked him for all his doings around the house and taking us to costco which he hadn't gone shopping with us in a long time. He has been giving me more money lately so I don't have anything to complain about. The only thing is that he's not home yet. But baby steps and where we are now is awesome and I will continue to doing what I have learned and it really does help me become my old self but 10xs better.
Me 34 H 33 Married 2006 S5 D2 BD Jan 2015 EA/PA He moved out 2/2/2015 Came back 5/2015 Filed divorce papers 8/21/2015
