It absolutely matters. Your relationship wasn't a lie, it may just appear that way because of the pain your in right now. The memories/love you had were real and no matter what W does no one can take those away from you except yourself. Don't.
Don't look so down on your life either and call it a sham. There's so much to live for in life, possibilities and futures you can't even imagine right now. You decide if you want to let this experience hold you back in the future, or use it to become a better person. Even if W is gone forever, if this experience changes you for the better (which it will if you let it) then it is an important step if the evolution of kramer. Don't give up on yourself or life. Maybe this is how it's meant to happen, a painful but necessary path to the best you. Who knows what's waiting for you in the future.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
