RD, what a betrayal... saying all these nice words about having hope and so... with my sister Toots. Gosh, even here we need to DB.
Toots... hope everything goes well with the application. As I understand it is just logistics for now because the job is yours either way.
It's never too much to say that you are a very important inspiration for many of us. You have self respect and a lot of strength in you. I really envy your self control.
Hope your H had some time to think about things while in vacation with his S.
Keep the good spirits Toots, we know you can do it. Try to get those awful feelings out somehow. Then get your balance back and keep doing what is best for Toots.