Complex #7 - the green(-card) mile

[Complex]

Good Lord. This is weird. I met a women the other day and for some reason she completely stands for what I value and I kind of like her, not in a "desperate", confused way or anything, just for who she is..on a friend basis too. But I feel guilty about it. In fact I am not over my marriage and not ready to date or whatsoever. Maybe it is just showing me what I am worth. I always attract really honest, authentic women with a big heart..which means, these people I don't want to play games with at all..which is a very good thing I guess. So I have to just be very honest and extremely cautious. I mean I had some re attraction with other people but it feels different this time. But I might just be stupid, simply listening to myself.. BUT lets see it this way: the experience just having these thoughts is good because I can reflect on it and hopefully learn something about myself and I am not up to hurting anyone at all.

Rest of my life: same old. Hardly see W. We are friendly but there are no signs at all of that she opened her heart just a bit. Having some setbacks these days tho, feeling a bit "too normal", tired and not overly motivated. But That will eventually go away again.