No response from wife and she has received my disputed response. I'm sure she is preparing for battle and hunkering down. Makes NC easier if neither party communicates, I guess.
I realize that D is inevitable. Her actions over the last few months consistently show that she doesn't love me or respect me. I read through messages between her and boyfriend last night, and although painful, they further reinforced my decision to accept the end of our relationship. She expressed such hate and disgust toward me in those messages. Of course, she never told me how miserable she was or tried to fix things. That hurts. We never even tried.
I envy those people who discuss their divorce and say that they drifted apart, or it was amicable and both parties knew it was over. I don't dispute that my wife had those feelings, but I wish that I would have known. It causes me much internal strife and grief.
Perhaps I should find solace in the fact that her messages to boyfriend were also filled with lies about her life and experiences. Eventually those lies catch up, right?
Me M51 WW F46 T 17 yrs M 16 yrs 9 children D29 D27 D26 S24 S24 S19 S19 niece18 S17 8 grandchildren ILYBINILWY: 12/15/14 I discover PA 12/31/14 She files D: 1/9/15 She moves out 3/2/15 D papers served 3/18/15
