I've rewrote this over and over with so much to say. I'm sad to hear of wifes new plan with OM. I know this is not what you or your family wants, from what you have told me. I thought maybe she was serious about making a go at our family again. But she can not give him up. I really pray for you and your family. Because you have told me how she doesn't talk to you or the family when he is around and how he is bad news. I know how much this has all hurt you all. She has really depended on me through all this for a lot of her problems. And now all that will be put on you all. Because I don't see her going to him for it. I can no longer be there for her. My hope is one day you all can encourage her to get some counseling. This is the only way I ever see her finding her happiness.
I don't know how I'm ever going to hold my hatred for him with them living only a block away in the house they are buying and starting to go to baseball games and such. But hopefully I'll be able to suck it up. I know he has caused her so much pain and will continue to do so. It truly has been hard to go through all this for me. Watching some one you love so much and means so much to you. Being hurt all the time. And her not realizing where her pain comes from. I think it's pretty obvious where her pain comes from (not having her family anymore). Maybe I'm wrong? And a lot of that is probably my fault for not being a great husband. I should have put her above every thing else in the world and I didn't do that.
I will try not to fight through the divorce. I truly want Her to be happy. I just want what is fair. The same as it has been lately. Split time with kids, holidays and money. Really there is nothing left to fight about. Although I do not agree with the person She is choosing to be a part of my kids lives (morals and other things). And be there through their young childhood. I will have to except it and move on. I pray to god that she will have some respect for me and wait till after the divorce is done to start bringing him to kid events. I think you know where I come from with every thing that has happened in your life.
My purpose of this email. Is not for you to do anything like I have asked in the beginning of all of this. The purpose is to ask for your blessing to give up hope and move on. For some reason I feel I owe it to you and everyone (kids included) to hold on to that hope and try. I truly believed in our marriage and fighting for it. But all that hope and trying is hurting me to much. I can no longer do that. Since I once asked for yours and FILs blessing to marry her, but I don't think FIL knows as much now, and you and your family mean more than the world to me. I'm asking for your blessing to give it up and truly move on. If you can't I understand.
Love, 3kids your son in law and always will be as you once said
P.S Please take care of Her,I know you always will!
Obviously I changed all names. But what do you think?
M36/W30 S13,D10,S6 Married 4.5 together 12 Bomb 1/14 EA/PA OM 1/14 still going Served 2/14/14 Separated 3/14 D paused 6/14 6/15 divorced