Hi Sting,

Thanks for stopping by, I did go back and read Snodderly's post to me at my last thread. I am accepting that H is still in replay.

Yesterday H found his gun cabinet that he wanted and purchased it. It's very heavy and he asked his two drinking buddies to come over and help him move it into our basement. Yes, this is the same person, who told me the night before that he was moving out. I went to see how it looked and said my hello's. I have not seen these guys since before this whole mess started. I do know that they are/were in support of my H staying in our marriage. Anyway as I was looking at them it occurred to me that as long as H was still hanging with these guys he was going to continue to drink. When I read your post Sting, my eyes opened and I do know see that H is in replay still and yes there is depression, but it's up and down like you said.

I'm out of the forest and it's very clear to me where H is at emotionally right now, the button pushing, anything he says does need to go right by me. H is so back and forth, says one thing then contradicts himself with the next thing. H is confused! So I see what I need to do here, also.

We had a nice dinner last night and talked a little. H said that OW was "stalking him" "tracking him down" still, so OW is still initiating contact with H. I didn't respond or ask H if he had been talking to her.

H also said he didn't know what he was doing that he could just flip a coin at this point and H said he told this to OW. I said to what make a decision? And H said "yep" So I said and then what flip it again? I mean I KNOW that he couldn't just flip a coin, that it wouldn't be that easy. He's been flipping coins the whole time and flipping and flipping. I really don't think he could just flip a coin and then go with that decision.

We then talked about H's drinking spell the other night. H at one point did say "when I can't remember anything, it's time to think about quitting drinking."

Thank you all so much for your wondeful support, I TRULY do not know where'd I be without this BB?

I'm going to watch my BB game for awhile and then come back here. H had to go watch it with his buddies, which is fine, I could tell he was edgy today, like a caged lion. H did take a drive this morning, have no idea where he went either. SS came over and played with his little brother.

I went to the mall and it felt sooo good to be there..I'm having a great day, a nice relaxing day.

Oh and H made breakfast this morning!! Eggs and sausage and I thanked him and you know what he said "well I didn't see you jumping to do it" lol...H told me last night he was going to make breakfast...he just can't accept my "thank you's" AND H said to me last night "you're not mad that I bought that cabinet are you?" I said no, I cringed everytime I went into the downstairs bedroom and saw those guns there..The old me would have been mad that he spent the money and blah, blah, but hey we needed it and H is going to spend his money no matter what I say, I have accepted that for now.

Cathy