Zelda - almost there

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I am counting on his honesty (truly. he no longer wants anything from me, so the manipulation shouldn't be a factor.), and want to ask him if he planned to sabotage this at some level. How and why he bounced around extremes when he came back. I'm just interested in what he has to say about his messy head, what he did that night and why he handled it the way he did afterward. What those promises and declarations really meant to him when he came home.

Z-although you are having an "honest" discussion with H, just remember that straight from the horses mouth, might be a [censored] up, retarded horse (no offense or disrespect at all). But that we don't know how honest his honesty really is at this point. He is clearly not 100% himself, so please be careful as what you take for truth.

3. in a week or month, he will file for our D, and I'll show up and smile and sign stuff when the time comes.

Why do you feel like you have to smile about this. Im not saying your going to be you know pearly whites showing, flashing a gorgeous smile, but most people will probably disagree with me, but who says we have to be ok with this? If my W wanted a D, theres no way in hell i would show up smiling. Would I be bawling my eyes out, crying up a storm? No. But I would probable be genuine, in the sense that I don't want this, its your move, but I respect your wishes enough even if its not what I want. I guess, bottom line, i don't think being genuine is really that bad because he will clearly see through fakeness if you get too crazy with it. Idk...

I hope the breakfast goes well for you Z, and please let us know how it goes. But go into it with no expectations and the only one you should expect is that your questions might go unanswered...i know its hard, i just met my W too remember? I just hope you don't expect too much from it. Nothing but the best for you Z.