So many questions have filled my head in the last day. If I had it my way TODAY I would be totally done, divorced and moved on.
I feel I am ready to move on. Not date but move on. Although it would be great to get some of my emotions out to a women(they are better at them then men).
Like 25 said this is probably not the end of my story. I also get that feeling. I've just made the conscious decision to not care about it. It is was it is. I'm going to stick to my guns and not start the divorce but I'm not going to fight it one bit(except for my rights).
Now, can you actually believe she had the nerve to call me after dropping that bomb on me yesterday. And the bomb was as straight up as you would be telling a joke or anything to someone, no pause in it at all. She asked me a car question(my field of work). Instead of blowing up I calmly told her what to do and where to go for it. At the end of the convo. Requested one last time as her former husband to respect me and not bring him to the kids stuff until the divorce is final. I don't know what that was about. Just probably to get a reaction out of me or see if my anger changed. To see if she needed to lawyer up again. Who cares!
Last night I rehearsed a email in my head. An email I was going to send to the MIL. I don't feel bad for me right now, just her family. I think I kind of expected this all. I wrote the email but haven't sent it waiting to see if my emotions change. It basically states that I'm sorry the wife is choosing this course and how much pain it will cause all of them. Because they where so happy that she was leaving him and considering our marriage. Telling her I'm not going to fight the divorce like I did in the beginning. And just basically asking her for her blessing to give up hope and move on. For some reason it feels like I had their hope and dreams on my back as well. And I just want to move on. And to take good care of the wife because she is going to need them. When she finally realizes what just happened.
Im just going to hold on to it for a day or two. Till my emotions are not clouded. For some reason I feel like this is a test to see if I have changed.
Thank you all so very much 3kids
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M36/W30 S13,D10,S6 Married 4.5 together 12 Bomb 1/14 EA/PA OM 1/14 still going Served 2/14/14 Separated 3/14 D paused 6/14 6/15 divorced
