Honestly, i'm doing awful. with everything that has been happening in the last couple of weeks, my life feels like it's heading into the toilet. with the taxes, job, this stuff, etc. i was doing pretty well at the detaching, but the progress has really been dealt a blow. i will say that the dinner was initiated by her.
frankly, t'm really struggling right now. i miss my wife and family. the questions i get from the kids are getting harder to deal with. they both wanted pics of our whole family together to put in ziploc bags to carry around with them. my D started bawling the other day because "this isn't the way its supposed to turn out. y'all are supposed to get remarried and i can wear a pretty dress and brother can wear a tux. it's supposed to end in happily ever after!!!"
S has started recounting good times as a family out of the blue. last night she called and they both didn't want to talk to her. i just hold them and let them know that i'm sorry that it is like this and that i love them very much.
nothing much else i can do. i will say its amazing that i don't hate her. i know i hurt her but i SO want the chance to make it up. that said, she has a lot to make up for too.
what stinks is that our schedules now would have allowed us to have quality time together just us. to explore our new surroundings. the same thing she put in her profile she wants
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I wish I could love you and make you believe it 'Cause that's all you ever wanted From me
