Zelda - reflecting and grieving

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Z- you cant, you just cant, keep "What If'ing" yourself or "Why-ing" yourself to death. I know, of all people, I am telling you this. But you're not going to get the answers you want, not right now, maybe never. You told him to leave a second time, because you couldn't and would not take his behavior- completely understandable. You drew a line in the sand and said you wont take this. I admire that, so much.

I'll say it again, because you've said it to me, so many times. H was just not ready Z. Just not ready to come home. Maybe he thought he was, but he just isn't. I don't completely understand what you feel, but remember, W did tell me once, she's coming back and then she didnt. I know the pain you're feeling, we all do.

Keep being you Z, let H have some more time to fix himself , to think things over, remember its the quiet times that he has to himself that he gets to really figure things out. Praying for you Z.