Hi Toots , best of luck with application. I think we all portray strength at times but you found out about OW and were gone. That takes huge strength and real character. I'm sure you don't always feel the strength but from the outside looking in , it's there to see. If you didn't wonder or worry about your H you would have truly detached and some other lucky guy would have the pleasure of having you in his life It might not mean much but knowing there are ladies like you Out there gives me great hope of being happy again thanks for being Ttoots. Take care. Rd. xx