Confused and mix messages. Part 3

[Cherry]

So this feels a touch difficult. I feel like he started to come out of this fog a touch- we laughed, we talked an "us" he referred to us as a sort of partnership and "you're wife" whereas he hasn't the past few months. He even said how one thing making him rethink things is seeing how good of a mother I am and how I'm just getting by and ruining the home still regardless. I do see this as a positive as I have never pointed out anything that I do. I just get on with things.
So despite the slight positive, I'm back to not having expectations. I don't know if he's cake eating or what. But I know that my detaching, 180s, GALing has made him open his eyes a little.
Been planning my trip with baby, nothing booked yet. But really looking forward to that. Weather is getting good so nice to get out in the sunshine with baby. Filling my house and redecorating with things that make me feel happy and positive. Listening to lots of feel good music, and need a spring clean of my wardrobe.

Life goes on I guess, h well and truly knows my feelings. I didn't want to seem persuing so when having an R talk the other day I made out that I obviously really want our M to work and work in this together. But, I also know that I will hurt, but I'll get along fine by myself. I don't know if that was handled well or not. But at least he knows my stance.