I feel so embarrased for my H. H was very intoxicated last night, he hasn't been this bad where he's come here in a long time and it was pathetic. I was wishing he would have went to OW's, I was wanting him to leave our house, the guy is a mess.
He's been drinking a lot more in the last couple of weeks then he ever has. I don't know how many nights he was drinking when he was living with OW, but I can't believe it's as much as now. It seems like nightly with a break here and there.
H and S4 were the same age last night, I saw it except H was drunk. Nothing bad happened, S4 isn't old enough or can see that his dad is drunk as S has no idea what that means.
H messed around with S, wanted to hug him, be near him. S didn't like all this clinglyness and really didn't know what was going on with his dad or why he was sick!!
H finally went to bed and passed out. I think he is still drunk this morning. What a fool!
I don't want S brought up with a drunk dad, I've seen what happened last night happen to SS when he was about 10 or 11 when H was very drunk. H is on the same age level as his children, he was last night with S4 and when SS was younger.
Would asking H to move out until he gets help be the thing to do? I don't want to do that, but I also don't want S to continue to see his D like this. I want to just yell at H, tell him how he acted last night, say how bad I felt for him, do I use compassion or do I get mad?
I don't know that H will even remember everything he said or did...the man's going to be 50 and he's still acting like he's 18.
I don't know that he's going to hit rock bottom anytime soon either.
