I feel I'm missing companionship, intimacy, and just someone to talk to about work, my day, etc. I'm not quite sure how to fill that void, I don't think it's dating, but I also feel like my friends have been super supportive but I can't lean on them to totally fulfill these things. Especially because now I find we are in different phases of our lives. I guess the good ole GAL is where I need to focus.
I wish there was a good answer here. There are so many of us willing to stand for the love of our life and the union that they once cared about. A thought keeps popping into my head that we gave a vow to forsake all others for our spouse. I do nor think that 'all others' was meant to include ourselves. I love my wife. I want to hold her and feel her breath on my chest. It is something that I dream about. That feeling of closeness and warmth is what I want back in my life. Do I move on and not forsake my desires forever? Do I stand alone and leave myself wanting until death do us part? Do I find something that can fill that need of closeness, intimacy, affection, desire, passion (I've not found it yet)? Or do I stand and wait because that is who I am and I will not compromise who I am. We want to be loved again, we certainly deserve it. We absolutely deserve it. I just want to run away sometimes
