Alpha One, Alpha All #

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Just took the kids back. Bit annoying that when I got there W wanted to go back to our town (she's living a few miles away in a small nearby town). Since I was going I gave her/kids a lift.

Waiting for a mo in her place, my S6 was being quite naughty for her. She tried to blame me, saying each time S6 comes back to her he's naughty and it must be because I spoil the kids. I don't. I never have. In a nice way I explained this and she relented and agreed.

In the car we chat over minor things, the sunshine etc. We got on great...best in ages. At one point she commented how nice it was we were getting along better. I agreed. She said the kids love both of us. I agreed. We made arrangements for kids for the rest of the week.

I was going to the bank once parked up. Turns out W was too. We walked over together with the kids. A 5 min walk. She talked about hols this year...and next year. Asked if I had any. I was vague in answering yes.

She talked about France, where we'd been to before, how she felt comfortable there. I was tempted to make suggestions but never. She learnt a tiny amount of French during previous holidays there. She brought this up,saying she could order food etc. I cheerleadered at this point: 'oh yeah, I remember when you used to go to the supermarket in France and speak French to buy baguettes etc. You were really good at that.'. She almost blushed and broke out into a big smile.

During the walk a girl I know (the hottest girl from high school by chance - W doesn't know her (my age)) passed by across the street. We saw each other, smiled, said hello. W was mid sentence at that point. I wasnt rude or ignorant to her. She carried on a few more words...then stopped and said it didn't matter.

I don't want to purposely make her jealous, but unintendedly it couldnt have gone much better: really hot girl says hello from across the street. I could see the cogs turning in W's head. A bit more chit chatted followed shortly after.

We reached the bank, I nipped in a shop for some things for the kids, and then back to the bank to part ways. W was waving her phone about. Hard not to notice she had text app open and OM was top name. I'm not surprised. At this point right now I'm not really bothered (well OK, a little bit). Not to boast but I look the best I have in years, both in terms of physicality and clothing, and I'm becoming a better person. I love W and adore my kids. W will either wake up and catch on that she's losing out by not being with me, or she won't and...over time I will move on and someone else will be very lucky. I feeling kind of good today.

P.S.

I do initiate little bits of conversation but then step back and let W lead. She is starting to open up to me slightly. I think I'm on the right path. I'm not letting her take advantage of me, setting some boundaries, we're sticking to parenting plan, she's showing some flexibility, we're being nicer to each other, but I'm not pursuing.