Thank you for stopping by Zues, the crossing in peoples lives are for sure a work of the universe, nothing is wasted, it is all a big design set up to make us to discover who we really are.
I am finding out I am a kind person, I have a lot of fight left in me. I like to set my goals and for a long time into my marriage I lost direction. I was living for my H and my kids, and I ask myself what about me? There is nothing too much to answer, I left myself unattended and in a way I lost my vibrant self.
Now, in this huge turmoil and pain, I am searching not for who I was, but for who I want to be moving forward. I am learning, some days are better then other, but I will not give up on myself.
Sweet T, you are always so sweet with this old lady. Yes, I am having a blast with my boys. We went to the mineral water pool 100 degrees. We played a lot, my boys are strong and tall, they toss me around like a straw. We played zombie attack and bite, we played some football, did some aquatic aerobics. I know it sounds kind of tough play, but they are boys, I just need to toughen up.
We just come back from a 2 hours trip to get some McDonald's to my S15, crazy. It's now 12:27am. Kind of scary around here, it's super dark and there is always deer in the streets.
My H was never much adventurous, he always got mad if we did this kind of stuff during our vacations together. My kids keep saying to me that they are better off without their dad around.
I wish the connection they had with him was something to treasure and to miss, but they are happy. This is something that makes me think, and I get very mixed up.
