Sorry for not posting for awhile, the kids and I are in the middle of the Mountains of Colorado. WiFi is a luxury here.
So Toots, no mind reading please. You know it's not very good to anticipate any event, much less when it something you can't control and do not have any idea of why your H is dragging himself to take a decision that by the way it should be an easy one if he is not holding anything inside himself.
It is an annoying situation you are at, but don't let your fears to get the best of you. Remember that it is not all done, it's not all finished. It may be well the start of a new cycle.
During the time that you are S from your H, you met your SS and XW twice I think. Maybe SS will talk to him about you, maybe he will tell that he likes you and miss spending more time with you. Who knows, everything is possible.
Congrats on taking good care after your Mom and Dad, it's so amazing that you give so much love for them.
Please, remember always that you are a nice person and deserve good people in your life. You probably had your down moments during your M, you let go and maybe could have done many things better.
But you are 50% responsible, if not less. Your H is also responsible for a dull R that led you here. And he may need to do a lot more thinking than you, since this is the 2nd R that does not work well for him.
Do you have any idea if he is getting some help, like an IC?
It would be great if he could treat himself and see things a little more clear.
Keep being positive, don't forget he fell in love with you once and he still have some if not a lot of that love inside him yet. It's not too late, it will be too late only when you decide it's time to let go and move on.
