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[bravo61]

so S had his first baseball practice a couple of days ago but she didn't tell me. found out on our convo the other nite. she said at the time that he may have one Sat but she wasn't sure. i asked her to please let me know cause i would like to go. didn't blow up at her or anything. so Sat i hadn't heard anything so i got up early and texted her. she said yes it was at 2.

i got to practice and sat in the stands and she asked me to come sit with her. i was pleasant and she talks to me about the house, her job, etc. i listen and look into her eyes while she's talking.

after practice, she asks if i want to go to early dinner with them. couple of things were said that i never knew about, like she didn't want to go back to school that i shamed her into it and acted like she had no inititiave. i don't recall that but she did. i just let her know that i didn't remember that and i was sorry. all she wanted was three kids and to work flexipool. again, something i didn't know. i said that i prolly would've grumped about it but at the end of the day i would've done it. she said that we'll just have to disagree about that. i told her that she doesn't know me better than i know myself. i told her that i would've worked plenty hard to make it happen just like i worked extra all those times to save for good vacations for them. she acknowledged that i was great about that stuff.

she asked about the adventures i've/we've been on (the kids and i). told her some and she shared some the things she's done (surprise a lot of pubs and breweries). on the way back, she mentioned that i'm a whole different person: speak softer, kinder, better dad, go to church, lost weight and i said i'm worth it (reference to the other night). she patted my leg and said "i always knew you were and you could be this person and i'm so proud of you".

the kids were so well behaved and happy to have us all together. i think she did it because i told her the other night she was welcome to go out with us and see what it was like (that she's not "bashed"). when we got back to my car, i reminisced about the area we were in. on holloween 2013, i visited and we walked around that neighborhood with the kids. i saw a local cop that night and asked bout a job. i kinda said that it would've been nice to have ben hired earlier.

i told her that i was sorry for the way i acted when she was here and i was there that i was so scared, depressed, and i felt like i was letting them down. she said that it was hard to see that as i screamed at her on the phone. i told her that was wrong of me and i was sorry. she kinda opened her arms for a hug (while sitting in her seat but i didn't do it). kissed the kids and she rolled down her window. i walked up and smiled big reached through the window put my hand on her cheek and kissed her other one. she smiled and said see you tomorrow.

she kept talking bout raising her kids in the house, working less to see the kids (and date i'm sure). at one point S (God love him) said when is yall's anniversary and she responded with alacrity the right day.

i'm sure it means nothing. she's prolly just peeking outside the gate at me on my picnic blanket. as evidenced by the fact that she was surfing match within an hour after this.

S said that she learned that she was unfriended by me and said it was a "bummer".