Stay off your husband's rollercoaster. He is going through many things and Satan is trying to get you back on in order to destroy what the Lord has started to rebuild.
As much as you want his actions to be the way that you want them to be, it is not time for him yet. The Lord has not finished his work in him and you must continue to pray for him.
He is being pulled in two directions. One is by satan and one is by the Lord. Remember, this is a spiritual war that your husband is going through. You must continue your prayers and believing in what the Lord is doing. Reread those books that you haven't gotten from Rejoice Ministries and get into the Bible.
You are his rock right now and needs you to keep praying for him. This is a battle that he can not win on his own. You have to be like the silent partner for him right now. I know how hard limbo is and I know how frustrating it is, but you have to do what you can and you can pray. You can pray harder then you ever have before.
Just because he is home, does not mean the battle is over. Satan is going to fight harder then what he was when he was out in the pigpen of life. He had him when he was out there, now he doesn't have that same hold, but he is trying to get it back.
Quote: Just be careful not to get too caught up in what he is doing, thinking, saying. You need to be putting some of that time & energy into Cathy. I have a friend who says we are like a big pitcher of Kool-Aid ... pouring out what we have to others... and if we don't remember to make more for the pitcher, soon it is enpty and we have nothing to give... and if we water it down because we're too busy to make the real stuff, then we're giving out watered down "us". I liked her analogy even though I'd be hard pressed to drink Kool Aid myself... take care of yourself.
This is so cute, I love it!LOL
Cathy, hon, this IS you! You need to let H take care of HIS drama and you take care of Cathy and your son. Hope you went ahead and finished that meal. You MUST show your H that no matter what you are moving forward. This is not a time to be a wet noodle! Stand up and show him you are proud of you! You almost sound like a depressed wet towel. Don't let this get you down and don't react to his crap!
A depressed wet towel!! lol...I believe you just insulted me and, and, and...I was depressed, I see that now and I am getting my footing back!! Yippee!!!
I'm hestitant to share the events of the last week that sent my world spinning, but it was a big part of my mood these last few days. So I think my mood/feelings were appropriate, but I'm getting myself back into balance.
H's crap kind of got pushed to the back burner or maybe I was more emotionally involved, couldn't separate myself from it, couldn't see the forest.
Oh I see I was so close to getting back on that thing again, maybe one foot on, but am getting off.
Last night after H took off, it was nice to have some space for awhile. It was just me and S and it felt nice and relaxing..I was doing the eggshell walk the last couple of days.
I could feel myself "waiting" for H's return, dreading H's return, it was uncomfortable, it was the feeling I used to have when I would have no idea where he was and then the bells in my head started ringing...I'm not detached.
I was trying to get S to sleep before H got home, how ridiculous is that, because if H did come home while S was awake it'd take another hour to get S calmed down again. S did go to sleep early as he was tired, but fought it like he usually does.
I had some time to lay in bed and read my Praying Wife book. I did bring out the Prodigal Returns and read some of that again. Then just dozed with the light on.
H showed up shortly after that I was still awake, could tell he was at his saloon, the smell of smoke!! Yuck!
H got into bed, didn't say anything, I was tring to sleep and was almost asleep when H asked me a question. We talked for a few minutes and then H was asleep.
I did make H a sandwich last night for his lunch which he took today.
Glad to read that you are feeling better today. I could tell ,of course, that whatever happened last week had a big impact on you but you seemed to have gotten through it.
I was a bit worried about you but I knew you'd bounce back.
My little guy is doing fine. He is his father's S and H cannot deny him. H has dark hair S has light hair, but they're both VERY Irish. Very stubborn with tempers!!
Thought I'd post some positives from H these last view days:
Last night H played driveway hockey/baseball with S--to tire him out--from the time H picked S up from daycare till I came home from hair appt.
If H has his cellphone plugged into charge, will plug my cellphone in once he has charged his phone.
I had to have some blood drawn today, when I was in for my check up last week the blood tests from my thyroid were a little off. H did call me this afternoon to see what my test results were even though I won't have them till tomorrow.
When I called H the first time today, H was rather short with me as he was busy. BUT, he did call me back a few minutes later and let me know why he had to get off his phone so abruptly.
H tries in his own way, he wants to be a good guy, but right now he's having a very hard time with his life.
MY life is one big positive!!! I love my life, except when I find myself getting on my H's rollercoaster!!!
Spring is coming, golf season is coming, I have a great little boy, I have a wonderful family and awesome/wonderful friends including my BB friends/family.
I'm feeling lots of PMA....the closer to spring the higher is goes.
