Oh I see I was so close to getting back on that thing again, maybe one foot on, but am getting off.
Last night after H took off, it was nice to have some space for awhile. It was just me and S and it felt nice and relaxing..I was doing the eggshell walk the last couple of days.
I could feel myself "waiting" for H's return, dreading H's return, it was uncomfortable, it was the feeling I used to have when I would have no idea where he was and then the bells in my head started ringing...I'm not detached.
I was trying to get S to sleep before H got home, how ridiculous is that, because if H did come home while S was awake it'd take another hour to get S calmed down again. S did go to sleep early as he was tired, but fought it like he usually does.
I had some time to lay in bed and read my Praying Wife book. I did bring out the Prodigal Returns and read some of that again. Then just dozed with the light on.
H showed up shortly after that I was still awake, could tell he was at his saloon, the smell of smoke!! Yuck!
H got into bed, didn't say anything, I was tring to sleep and was almost asleep when H asked me a question. We talked for a few minutes and then H was asleep.
I did make H a sandwich last night for his lunch which he took today.
